Party at the Home
Posted on May 2nd, 2008
by 
MsCapriKell
MsCapriKell
Thursday was a whirlwind of last minute cleanning, shopping and then laying out a party at my place ... it snowed early on ... remained fairly cold... so I also got a fire going in the fireplace to warm the living area up...
On the menu:
Various crackers
Brie
Camembert with Herbs
Hummus (a couple different blends)
Baba Ganoush (eggplant spread - kinda like hummus)
Kalamata Olive Tapenade
Guacamole
Carrots
Spelt Bread & 7grain Bread
Vegan Hot Dogs (Good Dogs)
Quinoa Salad with Avocado (mildly spicy)
Asparagus (steamed and chopped)
and a variety of drinks
Dessert area:
The Chocolate Bar: consisted of a large variety of dark chocolate bars from various makers.
Key Lime Tart (from WholeFoods ... phenomenal!!!)
The turnout of people was wonderful .... practically everyone who said they would attend did attend... I love it when that happens. Everyone loved the space in which we partied ... and enjoyed themselves with the food, drinks and music. I met a few new connections to myco-workers friends - THIS kind of bonding is what I love about working with these people! The fact that I can call my co-workers "friends" is dynamically imporant to me ... I cherish the social community that is evolving and growing ... it's beautiful really!
It was so fabulous, too ... because I finally got to see Beth (DP's beloved angel) again.... it had been SO long!!! I miss her dearly ... last night didn't feel like it was long enough... and then to top things off... it really hit me last night that DP was going to be "gone" too ... spending more time in LA than here from this point forward ... It doesn't make sense to me why I have such an attachment to him -- we don't really spend that much time together, but when we chat... the conversations are always profound, deep, intellectual as well as humorous and silly -- so I realized last night that there is a part of me that "needs" him ... and so I know that this separation is going to be challenging for me. I know that we will still communicate because of work ... but it's the distance between us physically that I feel will alter the friendship for me at least ... I think this plays on my abandoment issues ... not that I feel he's abandoning me - but that I see someone "going away" that I care deeply about. And the fact of the matter is ... I don't think he really knows (well, now he will) how much our friendship means to me ... I can't even really explain it fully myself ... I just *feel* close. But, Beth reminded me that I will be able to visit them when I travel to LA ... and that they will stay in touch ... I love them both very much as a couple, too ... a living example of what I find beautiful in a relationship ... yes, the whole thing... bumps and balloon rides both! :)
So, after everyone left I was cleaning up the rooms and feeling all of the emotions from the night ... the joy, the friendships, the laughter, the bliss, and the heartache, too. It was such an overwhelming flow of energy mixed so well that I was buzzing along nicely on the chores ... and then my roommate came in from an event that she had to attend that evening ... and she jumped right in with me and helped me finish up the dishes and clearng the bar area in the living room .... wonderful conversation (or listening to me prattle on and on about what I was feeling! hehehe).
I finally made it up to bed and was lying there thinking about the evening when it finally hit me ... the waterworks ... the feelng of loss, the *allowance* of what is ... just being okay and present with my emotions ... I cried so deeply...
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Do the people in your lives know how much they mean to you? Is it a sacred secret?
I've got letters to write.
On the menu:
Various crackers
Brie
Camembert with Herbs
Hummus (a couple different blends)
Baba Ganoush (eggplant spread - kinda like hummus)
Kalamata Olive Tapenade
Guacamole
Carrots
Spelt Bread & 7grain Bread
Vegan Hot Dogs (Good Dogs)
Quinoa Salad with Avocado (mildly spicy)
Asparagus (steamed and chopped)
and a variety of drinks
Dessert area:
The Chocolate Bar: consisted of a large variety of dark chocolate bars from various makers.
Key Lime Tart (from WholeFoods ... phenomenal!!!)
The turnout of people was wonderful .... practically everyone who said they would attend did attend... I love it when that happens. Everyone loved the space in which we partied ... and enjoyed themselves with the food, drinks and music. I met a few new connections to my
It was so fabulous, too ... because I finally got to see Beth (DP's beloved angel) again.... it had been SO long!!! I miss her dearly ... last night didn't feel like it was long enough... and then to top things off... it really hit me last night that DP was going to be "gone" too ... spending more time in LA than here from this point forward ... It doesn't make sense to me why I have such an attachment to him -- we don't really spend that much time together, but when we chat... the conversations are always profound, deep, intellectual as well as humorous and silly -- so I realized last night that there is a part of me that "needs" him ... and so I know that this separation is going to be challenging for me. I know that we will still communicate because of work ... but it's the distance between us physically that I feel will alter the friendship for me at least ... I think this plays on my abandoment issues ... not that I feel he's abandoning me - but that I see someone "going away" that I care deeply about. And the fact of the matter is ... I don't think he really knows (well, now he will) how much our friendship means to me ... I can't even really explain it fully myself ... I just *feel* close. But, Beth reminded me that I will be able to visit them when I travel to LA ... and that they will stay in touch ... I love them both very much as a couple, too ... a living example of what I find beautiful in a relationship ... yes, the whole thing... bumps and balloon rides both! :)
So, after everyone left I was cleaning up the rooms and feeling all of the emotions from the night ... the joy, the friendships, the laughter, the bliss, and the heartache, too. It was such an overwhelming flow of energy mixed so well that I was buzzing along nicely on the chores ... and then my roommate came in from an event that she had to attend that evening ... and she jumped right in with me and helped me finish up the dishes and clearng the bar area in the living room .... wonderful conversation (or listening to me prattle on and on about what I was feeling! hehehe).
I finally made it up to bed and was lying there thinking about the evening when it finally hit me ... the waterworks ... the feelng of loss, the *allowance* of what is ... just being okay and present with my emotions ... I cried so deeply...
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Do the people in your lives know how much they mean to you? Is it a sacred secret?
I've got letters to write.
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blessings
July 2008
Fabulous, Kelly!
Thanks so much for sharing the story with us, You are blessed!
and You are a Blessing!!
Love XOX
It was one for the ages, a reverie filled night, MsCK :) Bless you for the beautiful night you made! And more to come! Rooftop party at our crib this hot summer!
aww. That sounded like a great time!!
Your question reminds me of how I feel when I miss my two brothers. The two who are still alive that is….I think about them so much sometimes….that I too break down and cry. I tell them how much I love them as best as I could in person, in text messages, in emails, and by looking into their eyes when I get the chance. There are times like I feel my love for them could never Ever be expressed. They are 6 and 12 years younger than me. Maybe it is a maternal instinct type of thing.
To everyone else…I send silly (to be expected) gift/care packages and leave long dramatic voicemails when they dont pick up :)
Sounds like a great time! You've gotta love Whole Foods! Their stock is a real bargain right now. Their frozen pear tart is very good too. Take care Kelly!
Kelly, thank you for your courageous sharing. There is that word again! I am going to think I'm stalking myself; but I HAVE to add a link to your blog to mine.
Sounds like a fantastic party!! A success in every way. Kudos to you for throwing such a wonderful bash. maybe chris's rooftop party will coincide with a visit from two of your fave folks this summer. ;)
only lately have i told those that are closest to me how much they mean to me, and how much i love them… and i'm so glad i have! (and in case i haven't told YOU lately… LOVE YOU!!!)