So... I finally unpacked the crystals and sacred objects that I used to have at my desk when I worked at Gaiam... I love the space set-up that I found for them... it was actually pretty much ignored and unused... so having the energy of the crystals and the space call out to me to bring them together... was a good feeling!

I kept feeling as though I was procrastinating about unpacking that box... seeing it and feeling it needed to be unpacked to be "finished" with the pain of changes that occurred - or at least what I had perceived to be pain with the situation.  But I have come to realize ... or accept/allow the space to be time to heal. 

Now that I have my first client for bookkeeping practice, I feel that the energy is shifting in a very positive direction for me.  I have always believed that everything happens for a reason... and that it all works out for what is truly best for my life path.  And now I am "okay" with the stumbling blocks that I've tripped over in my path.  It helps me to remember to pay attention... be more consciously aware!

I have also completed a book ... I have one more part to the project that will get it into Lulu for the first stage of publications... that's right ... I am going to be a published author... what an amazing feeling to sit with!!!  It was a creative endeavor to begin with... and it was from suggestions of friends that pushed me towards getting it published.

Life is keeping me busy... keeping me full of vibrant energy... challenging me to act in faith... reminding me that *I AM* the Creator... I always have a choice.

Okay... so here it is... 2008 coming to a close ... and 2009 eager to begin.  So I went back into the blog archives to find out ... what Intentions did I set for 2008 - and am I still working on any of those intentions?

RECAP:

2008 Intentions

** I have produced a set of my own Divination Cards that will inspire others to connect with the Source/Divine/God regularly!

** I am in a position that allows me to fully express my creative nature and bring together some of the most inspiring people, projects, events that will change the world!

** I am loved deeply and authentically for who I am.

** I am experiencing phenomenal breakthroughs on healing for my own spiritual journey and share that with others so that they, too, may heal and grow!

** I have established a regular community gathering that encourages and empowers people to joyfully share what they are most passionate about with their own personal communities - and share it worldwide!

** I have created a series of workshops that help bring new levels of awareness to people through their own breath and positive affirmations.

** I manage to create the most positive social connection with someone that I deeply admire and wish to share GAIA Community with. (OH, you will HAVE to stay tuned for this one!!!)  {giggles}  I am DREAMING without limits and will do whatever I can to make this happen!!

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I vow to live to my highest potential, in 100% authenticity, integrity and impeccability - loving myself fully at all times - to make this year phenomenal!  And so it will be!!!

Well ... let's analyze, shall we?

The Divination Cards... not a clue STILL ... I know it would be fabulous to have a set of my own... but, there is nothing springing forth on this idea/dream... so... I will continue to let this one find it's roots and surprise me with a bloom, should it decide to do so this year.  Not gonna give up on it... but, no pressure to *force* something to happen.

That *position* to express my creative side fully ... HELLO I am so IN that position now.  It's called Goddess*preneur.  I am exploring what it means to be self-employed... start my own business ideas... and create a revenue stream to sustain me.  WORK. IN. PROGRESS.  Way to manifest that one, eh? 

Hmmm... Well, "I am loved deeply and authentically for who I am" ... I should hope so... I mean, I love me deeply and authentically for who I am - most of the time... so I hope my friends and family do as well.  You'd have to ask them, I guess. :)

"Phenomenal breakthroughs" ... UHM... YEA-YUH! 2008 brought about some remarkable work with a Life Coach, my own fortitude, and reason to want to heal... I am sure there is plenty of work to continue to do... I still have scars that I am not quite sure how to approach... but, awareness is key, right?!

"Regular Community Gatherings" ... that one has been a bit of a challenge... I've had some lovely get togethers ... but I can't say that it's been a "regular" type thing... so I think I may hold onto this intention and move it into 2009 as well.  OH... hey, wait... I guess I did create a regular gathering... it just hit me... my 4o'Chocolate site that I am building out is based on a regular gathering that we had at work!!!  I *did* accomplish this one!! HA! Fabulous!  I'll still move it into 2009 as well.

Well... the "workshops" ... that has been a non-accomplished, put-on-the-backburner of 2008 ... the desire is still there to do this; but I think I will take baby steps with it in 2009... individual sessions and then into workshops.

Now for the challenging one... "I manage to create the most positive social connection with someone that I deeply admire and wish to share GAIA Community with" ... I can't imagine what I had in mind when I wrote this... BUT... fabulously enough... I have actually created a *few* positive social connections (not just one) with whom I have shared the Gaia Community -- even after being laid off from the company!!!  I am certain I will continue to share this community with many friends... after all, I am still a part of it... it has been a vital tool in teaching me so much about myself and my passions.

The vow... I feel I have stuck to this vow throughout 2008 ..."loving myself fully all the time" may need some work still ... but, I have become much better at this!  It has been incredibly easy for me to do this for others - seeing the divine beauty within my friends, family and new connections... it's easy to get so caught up in what's "out there" beyond me and forget to reflect a bit on my own personal traits that I share with the world.  It's funny when it takes a message from a 15 year old girl who hasn't seen me in 6 years to remind me to do that!!!

So... within the next couple days I will be posting my 2009 Intentions... reflecting first, fully, upon what 2008 accomplished, needs work on and what I aspire to become!